Back to 41 days

It's the 29th of April. I feel so empty.

I've just spent the last 4 days with Shino by my side and it was great. We ate a lot! haha.. She arrived last Thursday and I felt complete for the past 4 days. With her beside me, it felt as though nothing in the world mattered. We met up with my parents on Friday and had dinner with them. It was good, my parents like her.. Heh, it's rare for my mum to like anyone attached to me. I was happy.

Yesterday we had dinner with my relatives and then went out for supper with some friends. All in all, there was no huge extraordinary plans for the 4 days that she was here. We were satisfied with spending time with each other no matter what it is that we did.

Woke up late this morning, and almost missed her flight. Darn it, should have slept in 10 minutes more hehe. It was really rushed, and when she was at the terminal gate, there wasn't a chance for emotions to be released. We just hugged and kissed each other goodbye and we'll see each other online tomorrow. I felt strange that we were both so calm, me especially. And then an hour later it hits me hard and I felt the worst emptiness ever. She wasn't beside me anymore and I'd have to wait another 41 days to see her again.

Still, what I do know is that 41 days is much shorter than the 73 days we just made it through. Distance can be tough but we both know it's not forever. Sooner or later we'll be beside each other for good. If anyone wanted to see how true love should be, all they'd need to do is look at us.

Till next time.

13 days

So here I am, another blog entry.

Things with Shino are still great and I couldn't be happier. Well actually I could.. if only she was here. But I am thankful for what I already have. I'll be able to see her again in another 13 days. I can't wait! :)

I have plans for the future. Wait, let me rephrase. WE have plans for the future and so far everything is falling into place nicely. God, I sound like I'm going to take over the world or something. But no, nobody knows what the future may bring but I am glad that things are working out. I would stress that long distance relationship is very taxing and requires a lot of patience and discipline both mentally and physically. I am proud of myself for being able to hang in there but I have her to thank for that. She gives me strength. Heck, who knows if she's by my side I could probably take over the world! haha..

A few weeks back I got into a brawl at a club. Totally uncalled for but in some ways I guess it couldn't be avoided. Important lessons learnt there though, sometimes it's not good to be a peacemaker. Unfortunately, people who try to keep the peace are often mistaken for busy bodies who can't mind their own business. Which am I? Heh, I couldn't care less about other people's business but when some are your friends, you can't really sit back and do nothing. Either way, all's well that ends well. I walked away with a few scractches but that's about it.

Yesterday I mentioned to Shino that humans are such fragile creatures. Everything breaks so easilly. She laughed at me... and then told me I'm getting old. Heh.. I guess she's right. I think back and look at my past, the things I've done, how impatient I have been. All sorts of bullshit that I've gotten myself into. There are no regrets save one. In general though, I am happy for what I've been through. The experiences of the past has made me the man I am today.. hopefully that's a good thing eh.. :) It's funny though. Sometimes I wonder what my dad's life was like. Was it at all similar to mine? He's a great person now and I wonder if I am on the right track. From there, I wonder if my son will ask me one day what my life was like. What do I say then? The shit that I've been through aren't exactly role-model material for children haha.

Either way, I am glad that things turn out well and things will only get better from here. I'm sure of it. I'm glad that I'm confident about myself but also not over-confident. C'est la vie.

Shino visited last February as mentioned in the previous blog entry and though it was way too short a visit but it was an awesome one. It was good to be beside her. As expected though, it was heartbreaking to see her go back. Good news came not long after and she was planning to visit this coming April. The flight's been confirmed and she'll be arriving on the 26th.

The days have been counting down and we speak to each other everyday on skype. Everything is great and everything keeps improving. Today we counted the number of hours we've spent talking together on skype since 7th Decembers 2006. It rounded up to 194 hours! Amazing..

I've also bought my flight ticket to Japan which is scheduled for September 24th this year. I had initially intended to fly there in October for her birthday however the promotion period for the flight was unavailable during that time. I'm counting the days and I'll be able to see her again in another 24 days.

Distance relationship is tough but it's meaningful. Naturally long distance relationship with no hope for being together in the future is meaningless and could be considered unnecesary anguish. But as long as there's hope, both parties find the strength to hang in there for the sake of love. The amazing thing about Shino is that I would lay my life down for her. What is a little distance? It's even easier when she feels the same. One of the greatest lessons that I've learnt so far in this relationship is the importance of communication, trust and patience. Put these three together and you get appreciation. I appreciate her for all that she is and above all else, I appreciate what little time we've spent together so far.

We have both agreed that the hardship and effort we put into the relationship at this stage will pay off in the future. When we have our little arguments and quarrels, we'll look back at the effort that we've both put in to be together. Once the distance hurdle is over, I'm pretty much betting it's smooth sailing for the rest of our lives.

I thank friends and family for supporting us and I thank God for all that I've been blessed with thus far.

Till next time :) Here's wishing that you find love like mine.